Sweet embrace

2012-02-02T16:20:00.000+08:00

I don't have alternative choices/ options left but to keep on keeping on.

At this period of time I got to brace myself up, stronger than anyone else.

This isn't what I really want, but do I have a choice, seriously?

I start to wonder again; what am I living for?

Definitely not for myself but others.

The cold hard truth always lies behind the soul of someone.

The smiles, the laughter, the joy have all been captured and stolen away by the thief;

named circumstances.

Simple is always a beauty.

I don't have the luxuries of embracing simplicity.

Those dramas-mama in my life I would love to exchange;

for some Shalom

For those who complained about their life,

come live mine.

You'll come to realize how fortunate you're.

Treasure your loved ones; an old saying but there's certain truth in it.

Don't keep yourself busy with work & money which will not be the lasting ones.

Stop, take a sip of coffee & look around from where you're.

You'll be surprised how much you have overlooked certain things in your life.

I Love you.

2012-01-16T16:55:00.007+08:00

Woman, you're tough!

This is the life of a married couple? Hahas, you'll get used to it. It aint easy but so far you've been doing great. Hang on tight, you'll see what you have always dream/hope for in due season. When all things fall apart, just to let you know that you'll always not be alone for I'am always here for you. Even though circumstances drew us apart from meeting each others, old friend will always be old friend. Just a msg/call away!

That's why I love old friends, they're just like a part/piece of your flesh. Will not be separated with you even though you have not been seeing/using it.

Never be out of your Mind (:

2012-01-15T01:13:00.002+08:00

Single?

1) Not Pretty

2) Too Pretty

Not pretty doesn't attract anyone.

Too pretty no one dares to go after you.

I am pretty yet not pretty.

2011-12-25T18:07:00.002+08:00

It's Christmas! Jingle bell Jingle bell, Jingle bell rocks!..

I love Christmas, a festive season of Love, Hope & Joy all because God send a savior to the world on this special day. With God, Nothing is impossible (:

Met an old friend after a long long time on the eve of Christmas eve, yes the day before Christmas eve at our usual hangout place. Old friend not because she's old, same age as me. Woah, we have known each others for 15 years. I love the times when we would chat over the phone over nothing for hours and yes your dad would always nagged at you then. We would talk about our future boyfriend how how much we wanted to grow up fast. And now viola~ you gave me a huge surprise!

The gold ring on your 4th finger tells it all! Jaw dropping. Then you already got your own flat! Jaw dropping X2. That's a good news! I am gonna be a bridesmaid soon! Congratulation my old friend, you found your another half! I am so happy for you!

But the reality hit me hard, what am I still doing? This must be retribution for rejecting and ignoring so many guys. Yes I'm scolding myself for ignoring all those good guys right in front of me. What am I waiting for? The sky to fall? I don't know what I'm waiting for. I must be crazy.

2011-10-08T12:34:00.005+08:00

Ok.. miraculously I am blogging now, after reading my bff's blog post. It's time to pen down my thoughts after keeping everything to myself. I believed only a few will read this. New life in Brisbane? Not as good as I thought of, the Science courses here in UQ ain't easy at all. With daily dose of studying certainly doesn't do my health any good. I am really exhausted to the max, I could only rely on God's strength to pull through this. Cooking, washing, cleaning plus tonnes of assignments really pulled my hairs off! This studying overseas experience really made me appreciate many lil things in my life that I had overlooked at some point of time. The "shiokness" of just being a couch potato at home with delicious mum's cookings on the table, to glue to the tv all day with Russell lying beside me and even the noise created by my family, especially Russell etc. I missed going out with my brother, cousins and aunties, friends, cell group.. Hahas, the good news is that I will be home soon celebrating CNY with you guys!

On a side note, I found this to be true. Girls in relationship often gave in too much where I would say most not all of the guys will take her for granted. The guys will always be in the centre of the girl life no matter what. But what about the guys? Most often they ditched the girl just because they lose interest in them & simply gave some "lame" reason. I have heard more than enough of it. Sometimes you may ponder, are you drunk throughout the entire relationship? There's so many trees out there in the forest & why you chose this one? Love is Blind. This is all I could comprehend. At this age in my life, I feel that I am missing out something.. All of my friends are busy with their life & boyfriend..hmm, what bout me?

I would say that getting one can be as easy as ABC, but finding the right one is like finding a needle in a haystack. Those who are able to find one fast is lucky whereas those like me, gotta wait for the right timing. For there is a time for everything;

"To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven."

So those who are reading now, if there's any good catch feel free to contact me! ((:

Since I don't have one at the moment, I can't wait to go back home & help my brother in his "GUIDES". A place where I could give my love to the children. For God's love is overflowing in everyone of us, we should share it! To be His humble servant! Amen! <3

2011-07-21T15:03:00.004+08:00

For You alone deserve all Glory
For You alone deserve all Praise.

I miss Church, Cell group & Service so much! Indeed No place like Home (:
Okay, the weather here is horrible. Humid to the max, which causes me to bleed everywhere from my body. Shouldn't elaborate on it. Like they said, the beer here is cheaper than coke. Do you know how frigging expensive the drinks here are?! Drinks as in drinks, non-alcoholic drinks. A can/bottle of coke or green tea cost at least 4AUD. The cheapest food are definitely home-cooked food! It's fun to shop for groceries & think creativity for the recipe of the meals! Housewife in the making! Yeah! & the people here are pretty polite, so different from Singaporean whom will only provide us with bad services. In returns, they are very laid back! Shopping/working places close at 5 daily! Even weekends, the only night times are on Thursday & Friday. Heh. I'am loving this place but I missed all of the peeps back at home! You, you & YOU! Yes YOU! HAHAS! Will see you guys real soon! Till now, Ciao & Love from Bris! <3

2011-05-29T15:40:00.003+08:00

This is what you'll get when you turn 21. A gift, a chance to save many other lives. Opt to donate every of your organs in your body after death; for research, studies or be a donor (:

Gonna be 21 soon! But I'll not be here at home.

No lavish themed party, no chalet, no huge pretty birthday cake, no mountain of presents..etc

But with overflow of Loves from family, relatives & friends.

What's more can I ask for

2011-05-15T17:47:00.009+08:00

Been long, I don't think any will be reading this, most prolly some random strangers who will pop by..

& Finally I managed to settle my heart down. Weeks to go now. Now it seems that time is running away from me. I need to work from day to night, managed my Aussie's stuffs, meet up with friends from every walk of life, pack my luggage etc.

Come to think bout it, 2 years ago I really want to be there, physically. to live in a totally new environment where no one knows about my past, just to aid my recovery. I don't know what I am feeling right now. How can I possibly forgets about it, I don't have senile dementia or amnesia. I grit my teeth to hold on, I have work very hard to come so far, there's nothing I had not been through, there's nothing I had not seen with both my eyes. I am tough. Like they say, this stranger was once the most important person in my life. How true & ironic it is.

God is always here beside me, always. He taught me how to Love. To love your neighbors, & to bless them. Albeit what had happened, I truly enjoyed every moments we had. Recently I caught up with this drama; "The 2 of us". Hahas, yeah it's a pinoy show. Initially I was having bad thoughts about the show but my brother was watching it so I followed. & dang! the main actors are so Hot! Hahas, this cute hot guy reminds me of P.

P is the hottest cutest guy I had ever saw in my life. He's so charismatic that all girls will fall for. I still remembered I actually stared at him for 5 seconds with my mouth wide opened, due to his hotness. I am not exaggerating! Thanks for your "alchemist", our Yeo's lemon barley drink, our Rus berri etc. My hottest affairs ever. Hehe.

Thanks for everyone that cross my path, I truly love everyone of you from the bottom deep of my heart <3

I nag because I care. Okay, guess I don't have much opportunity to nag at you guys again.

I will really miss all of you, you know who you are. Please take care & be happy, that's most important.

“You never really leave a place or person you love, part of them you take with you ,leaving a part of yourself behind.”
These are the songs that I love and had post here before. Here they're, to reminiscence.

2011-04-22T23:09:00.003+08:00

There can be miracles when you believe.

2011-04-10T10:55:00.002+08:00

I just Love the new place at Suntec! The screen is simply Awesome-ness! Gigantic & Beautifully made. That's how we portray God's House. New Day with New place, not to forget New songs! "New day, New Dawn...!" Hallelujah! I will Praise You Forevermore!

& Time is ticking away. I'am already feeling home sick here in Singapore. I will definitely miss all the sweet cute lil ones, the times we talked about nonsensical stuffs, the times I had spent with my fellow travellers in Christ, the times spent with my ever giving family, the times spent with my crazy colleagues etc..

I know this is God's mighty plan, & I know that I will Shine for Him. Fear not for God is with me. Feeling excited, nervous, confused, tired,..Hahas. Hang on juls! A new day is waiting for me! Woohoo!

2011-03-16T20:16:00.009+08:00

Anywhere you are, I am near

Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep

Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone
And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight
And I'm gonna be by your side

I would never leave when she needs me most
What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone
Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

I'd rather be with myself, than with the wrong guy.

Always been hit isn't a good thing as well, they aint decent guy.

GOD

2011-02-25T23:30:00.004+08:00

It is God,

God is the one who brought me out from all of my tribulations, heartache and stress.

He walk side by side with me from the darkness into His light.

His grace and mercy helps me to forgive those who frame and did me wrong. which is amazing (:

His presence strengthen my soul throughout the days. Otherwise, I may collapse at the roadside.

His genuine eternal love teaches me to love all, yes all. Even to my enemies.

His faithfulness makes me cling unto him.

He led me into fasting. which I fall in love deeply with. It really brought me closer to God, holy spirit. It energize me throughout the day even though I had lots of laborious task to do. I did not feel a tini-weeny bits of hungry. I sensed his presence so strongly like never before. I just love it.

Though work is really terrible, "collecting the shit" left behind by colleagues just because they complete their task slowly or did not do it well. I am doing so, so , so much more than anyone and none appreciates the good work. It's not like I'am having a high pay job now. Life certainly isn't fair, I faced all the problems in every aspect of my life. It's crazy. Sometimes I really wonder why would God gave me all these difficult situation, and as I was jogging in the park, I came by the swing.

I had not sat on it for 10 years? So as I swing high up, higher and higher. I reminisce on the time when I was still a small lil girl where everyone will pamper me. That was the time I will like to go back to, happy lil girl. When I raised my head towards the sky, I know that God has a specific plans for me. I'am reaching towards the sky; my goals, my dreams, my destiny!

How could I say thanks, To You who gave us all.

2011-02-05T13:26:00.002+08:00

It's the festive season again. I was preparing to celebrate my last Lunar New Year here in Singapore after the 2-years of mourning. & sometimes "shit happens". Hahas. This year is the ever solemn New Year I experienced. Definitely not a good one. Relatives of mine were grieving with tears with the lost. With the different religious beliefs, conflicts are hard to avoid for the funeral plans. Spent the entire New Year days to & fro to the Singapore Casket, physically worn out.

Albeit with the rough tough situation,

I'am still blessed in many other ways. Finally I get to travel to Chinatown after the mid-night of Chinese NY Eve with the help of the "Land Rover" given by my dad's Boss! & the diesel are provided for. Shopped for many Goodies & on the way back, saw so many gays making out beside the road. Don't they know that the world is like lack of men?.. Women are having a hard time in finding their another half.

During the days at the casket, we got closer to the cousins that we hardly even met which is a good thing. & my grand aunt actually gave me many of her branded bags to me (:

p.s Be filial to your Parents when you still have the chance to (:

2010-12-31T21:08:00.005+08:00

How can we forget about 2011 New Year's Resolutions?

2010

was indeed a special year for most of us; We held the 1st Youth Olympic Games, opening of Marina Bay Sands etc.

albeit with More natural disasters & terrorist attacks.

2011 will be a year for my Dream to come true. With all the long sufferings I had, I still Keep on Keeping On. Having total Faith in my God. Believe that the Dream he gave me will SURELY come to pass. Nothing is impossible with God (:

&, it is to..

1) To accomplish the "Secret Mission(s)"

2) Learn to Cook real stuffs

3) Spend more quality time with my Family & Friends in Singapore

4) Get used to the lifestyle in Aussie

5) Mug!

I just Love, Heart God so much.

& His Presence is with me Wherever I go.

Thank you Lord.

2010-12-20T21:36:00.002+08:00

"Being Single used to mean that nobody wanted you. Now it means you're Pretty Sexy , & you're taking your time deciding how you want your life to be & who you want to spend with it.

-Sex and the City

2010-12-04T14:16:00.002+08:00

It's been long.

Work has leached out of my social life. Long hours in lab with all those physically demanding tasks to do, seriously break my bones. .esp when you gotta sit in front of the hood for the entire day. that's not the worst of all..

the most sickening things is to bear with two cranky superiors who are totally not capable of handling their job well. Can you believe how irresponsible they are. It's a clear fact that they made the mistake, but somehow it'll still be the tester's fault! Rubbish!

With all the sarcastic remarks they made to all of us, so demoralising & down!

But with all these I thank God for a whole bunch of AWESOME colleagues! Some are frigging lame, funny, nonsense, crazy, dirty and many are the smart ones! Like me! kekeke..

The reason why God has place me here is actually to train me on how to be a Good Boss in the future!

I simply love them. Everyday I can expect lots of laughter & weird patterns from them..I'll missed them when I am gone man :(

I start to reminisce about the happy and stressful times I had in secondary school times when I'am supposed to plan for overnight camps & activities for my cadets. It's kinda down when you're waiting excitedly to see people who will join you in the supposed dress code. But somehow many are not so on-going which made me looked over-dressed :(

Spent 110% effort in every aspects of my life, but wondering how many appreciate? That's life man.

Time is precious. Now. I would really want to do much things for you guys. All that's within my means, I'll do my best. Just name it! For you i will..(:
Meet up my friendS. Trying my best to find time for you guys (;

CHILLAX.

2010-11-30T22:59:00.001+08:00

Otherwise; "he's just not That into you".

2010-10-04T22:17:00.005+08:00

i've never really notice the amount of grey hairs that you had on your head..

Work & family must have toiled you down.

Soon, i'll be 21.

& i shall keep the promise, to mug all the way thru.

To aim for the best beyond the best.

To put my heart & soul in it.

Not to waste your efforts & Money.

Thankyou, thankyou for the support you've given to me.

To keep my dreams alive.

To make my life worth living for.

Although, I may not have the richest or most influential dad..

but I know, all I need is a dad like you (:

all I want, is to be your Daddy's girl..always & ever.

No matter how old I turns..

how many strands of grey hairs I got..

Now, I may not earn that much.

But soon..I will earn Big bucks & bring you around to all parts of the world,

to let you enjoy life.

I'll never be a freeloaders who live off their parents. Nono.

Because I believe in Christ Jesus.

My heavenly Father who make all things possible thru him.

& I abide in His Commandment;

"Honor your father and your mother, that your days may be long upon the land which the Lord your God is giving you".

2010-09-27T23:07:00.003+08:00

2010-09-25T17:18:00.002+08:00

The ARK; A Random Act of Kindness. to everyone.

that's why dinosaurs extinct? kekeke.

2010-09-05T15:52:00.002+08:00

my dad actually asked me; "does it snow in Brisbane?" Kekeke..

2010-08-29T22:02:00.006+08:00

ilove my jobilove my colleaguesilove my friendsilove my enemiesilove my dogilove my roomilove childrenilove tiramisuilove everything that's brownilove booksilove microbial ilove labilove annoying orangeilove OCDilove Erdingerilove laughtersilove smilesilove Mr Bean ilove the stars in the skyilove my churchilove my familyilove my lifeilove angelsilove you
most importantly

ILOVE GOD.

in conclusion. Get my point? i'am living life! (: that's what ALL of you out there, yes you.. you & you should be doing. Get a list of things that you love & you will realise that indeed you've not live in vain. I went to IDP fair for the 3rd time today & seriously..every time i am there, i really wish i'am physically in aussie..like RIGHT NOW! I can't wait to live a new life SOON & start everything FROM SCRATCH! It really doesn't matter how bad my life was in the past, the comforting truth is that i will be able to lead the kinda life i always prayed for since i was young-er; Simple, Heart-warming & Sweet. Pursuing my dreams in a beautiful place that i feel so relax in..plus that's a great school! Can't wait to shine for God! PRAISE YAHWEH!

EnjoyING Life, Pleased with myself. All is well. All is cool.

2010-08-15T18:03:00.004+08:00

The new "THREAT"?

Which is this superbug found in bacteria that carry the New Delhi Metallo-lactamase-1(NDM-1) gene..Named New Delhi caused it's originated from India.

The 1st victim was infected by the bacteria while being treated in a hospital in Pakistan & died in June last year. Despite been administered a powerful Antibiotics; colistin the patient still died. This is a wake up call for all who takes this bacteria lightly because the spread is becoming wider via contact & travel. The epicentre of the presence of this bacteria seems to be in India & Pakistan. The controversial issue is that the Indian doctors say the warnings about this drug-resistant superbug were Alarmist.

However, I think we should not be complacent about the issues of New UNknown bacteria or viruses as we do not know the dangers they might cause to human kinds. Moreover, NDM-1 passes easily between types of bacteria and makes them resistant to almost all the powerful, last-line Antibiotics called Carbapenems. There are no Antibiotics in the pipeline to that have activity against NDM-1 producing enterobacteriaceae.

To all who never listens to Doctors' advice on finishing their Antibiotics will have over time contributed to the Antibiotic resistance! Not to worry, this bacteria targets mainly on immuno-compromised people, through food preparation, bodily contacts, and especially hospital procedures. And it is found mostly spread to those who seek medical care in plastic surgery from India/Pakistan. What all of us can do is to keep a high maintained personal hygiene, safe food & water supply, Not wasting important Antibiotics in food animals.

Microbial studies is actually interesting as well! So should i change my Majors to Microbial Biotech?!

2010-08-09T17:58:00.001+08:00

you were my sweetest downfall.

2010-08-09T16:54:00.009+08:00

Let's Sweet; a newly opened japanese-desert buffet @ Bugis junction. The most stressful buffet I had. Lunch=60mins & Dinner=80mins ONLY. They do provide stopwatch at every table so you can actually see every minutes and seconds ticking away as you munch the foods. It's never good to eat at such a fast-paced environment, that will only leads to severe indigestion! See! I am so lack of time that i'd only managed to take a few snapshot of the deserts. LOLs. Plus the foods are not that fantastic either,..a few variety of main course & the desert counter where you gotta queue for your turn(waste a few minutes of your time) only allows 5 small pieces of desert at a time. So much crappy rules they have, just worth only the experience. Not tempted to go back there again.

2010-07-31T17:01:00.012+08:00

It's a blessing in disguise.. ..

I planned to work for a year in my school research lab to gain some valuable experiences in the working industry before going to aussie. & initially everything went on smoothly as i plan. I passed the 1st interview & the lecturer-in-charge actually told me to wait for the 2nd interview with the HRs. & so i did. As weeks passed by, all he did was to ask me to wait. Craps. Luckily, another same course-batch friend who also passed the 1st interview inform me that they are not hiring anymore. Like what?! Really waste my time man. So disappointed in the school & the lecturer who did not even give me an answer till now.

Oh well.. I knew that I can't give up at that point of time. So crucial.., I gotta find one 1-yr contract job fast so I can fly next july. & Behold, I mass "spam" my resume+cover letter & I gotten many calls from the companies. Eventually, I chose BD b'coz the job scope meets my interest & passion for Microbiology. &

Proverbs 16:9

"A man's heart Plans his way. But the LORD Directs his steps."

I truly experienced this verse. I had loads of Déjà vu from the BD's interview, medical check-up to the working lab experiences. God truly acts in a way that all of us can't comprehend. If it is not for the incident in school, I can only think of doing research & nothing else more. And Hallelujah! I know that I am not cut out to be a mad scientist. I found a new love for Bacteria (: Finally I know what to specialized in for my 3rd year. This is indeed God's perfect plan for me.

I really enjoy what I am doing in BD! Though it's not easy to wake up early at 5 plus in the morning everyday, at least I know this is what I really like. Now I got myself a discipline lifestyle; the first to sleep & the first to wake up, "Nutritional" meals (B'coz BD does not offer Beef, Mutton & Pork in their menu) & no time to watch television. Now I really understand how it feels to work full time. You'll be "stuck" in it with the hectic lifestyle. I am wondering why friends & relatives of mine actually asked me to date only after I start working & I realize that there's practically no time to meet new people, only your working colleagues?

And I am definitely the youngest among my QA MicroLab colleagues. On the first day, they were joking about "generation gaps". -_- Ahahas! & they love to use the word "ATAS" in their conversation(s)(which include me for being atas b'coz I go for an expensive treatment for braces?). They are real fun to get along with! I had a great time mingling with them & at the same time learn all the skills that i'am required to know.

Now I am really glad that I did not have the job in school b'coz the school premises is totally different from a real manufacturing lab. For instance, school lab only have small autoclave machine whereas big companies have huge sterilization machine which includes all the detailed procedures needed to be carry out to operate it & all the paper document that we gotta complete after we run each cycle. Yeah..this job really taught me to be a meticulous person. (: & Yesh..More SOP to read!

I am grateful for those who make time for me just to celebrate my day. This may be my last after I fly to aussie? Hahas. Time flies I must say. I see myself going through bad & good experiences, & now i am on the right track & going to realize my dreams & visions soon! Though I may have lose some in the past, but I gain so much more now. God is indeed creative. He made me walked past, beside two of the men whom once I love so much and both situation were in the crowd along with my brother. So creepy. I thought i'am having illusion, but no i am not. Hahas!

BTW this is my favourite Hill song! I have actually forgotten bout this song b'coz I sync my ipod songs last year & lost a few of my favourite hill songs album in it. And recently I re-found it at YouTube! Yeah! This is the best song to motivate me whenever I feel down & the song that can easily get into His presence (:

"No weapon formed against me shall remain!" :D

So enjoy it my loved ones.

Loves.

2010-06-30T14:10:00.003+08:00

"BRIDA" by Paulo Coelho

What do you mean "Soulmate"?

'We are eternal because we are all manifestations of God, that is why we go through many lives and many deaths, emerging out of some unknown place and going towards another equally unknown place.'

"And when people think of reincarnation, they always come up against a very difficult question: if, in the beginning, there were so few people on the face of the Earth, and now there are so many, where did all those new souls come from?"

'In certain reincarnations, we divide into two. Our souls divide as do crystals and stars, cells and plants. Our soul divides in two and those new souls are in turn transformed into two and so, within a few generations, we are scattered over a large part of Earth.

"And does only one of those parts know who it is?"

'We form part of what the alchemists call the Anima mundi, the soul of the world. If the Anima mundi were merely to keep dividing, it would keep growing, but it would also become gradually weaker. That is why, as well as dividing into two, we also find ourselves. And that process of finding ourselves is called Love. Because when a soul divides, it always divides into a male part and a female part.'

'That's how the Book of Genesis explains it: the soul of Adam was split in two, and eve was born out of him.'

'In each life, we feel a mysterious obligation to find at least one of those Soulmates. The Greater Love that separated them feels pleased with the Love that brings them together again.'

"How will I know who my Soulmate is?"

'You could tell your Soulmate by the light in their eyes'

'By taking risks, by risking failure, disappointment, disillusion, but never ceasing in your search for Love. As long as you keep looking, you will triumph in the end'

"Is it possible to meet more than one Soulmate in each life?

'Yes. When that happens, the heart is divided, and the result is pain and suffering. Yes, we can meet three or four soulmates because we are many and we are scattered.'

'The essence of Creation is one and one alone, and the essence is called Love. Love is the force that brings us back together, in order to condense the experience dispersed in many lives and many parts of the world.'

'We are responsible for re-encountering at least once in every incarnation, the soulmate who is sure to cross our path. Even if it is only for a matter of moments, because those moments bring with them a Love so intense that it justifies the rest of our days.

'We can also allow our Soulmate to pass us by, without accepting him or her, or even noticing.Then we will need another incarnation in order to find that Soulmate.'

'And because of our selfishness, we will be condemned to the worst torture humankind ever invented for itself: loneliness'

2010-06-15T21:01:00.002+08:00

To actually find out who truly are your so-called friends, see if they will be there for you when you needed them the most. So true (;

& im super thankful for Miss Norlimah-smellyfish. Always there; even though she has her new found bf! XxxxX

you're so vain

2010-05-17T20:48:00.006+08:00

yours truly finally officially absolutely graduated from Nanyang P. with Diploma in Molecular Biotechnology!

Without God's Grace and mercy, i wouldn't be here typing (: God has been FAR more than amazing, no words can describe how thankful & bless i feel. Remembering the days where every night i will be "chionging" for practical reports, Projects, Preparing for presentation, Studying for tests & exams that ultimately lead to my existing dark circles. It has really trained me to be a more organized person; a planner. The field of Life Science is not an easy path to take, but humans live for passion. So here i am to take up this huge task of understanding & exploring God's creation; Homosapien. Now i'am having my break to re-charge myself & get prepared for the true race. In a few more years time, you will see me doing the traditional "hat toss"! Wheee.!

Ephesians 3:20

"Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us"

So miracles do happen, only when we work hard for it & trust in God! Simple as that.

In conclusion: THANK GOD!

2010-04-24T16:15:00.004+08:00

Saturday= couple's day..therefore im lazing at home with my desktop. Where's my FRIENDS?? lols.

The nostalgic feeling by itself is pretty.. ..

aww..i dont know what im thinking though. I just know that your message alone can let me smile throughout the entire day.

2010-04-17T17:33:00.004+08:00

The Fool: A Leap of Faith

The Fool represents a free spirit with a lust for life, knowledge, and adventure, who has little fear of taking risks. Innocence and naivety are associated with The Fool, for the young have no fear of new experiences or change.As you grow older you can lose that childish innocence and enthusiasm, and can become fearful and cynical of change and new experiences.

The mind of The Fool is always open, an empty vessel eagerly waiting to be filled with new knowledge. Any experience, pleasant or challenging, is life knowledge that he accepts as part of his learning.The Fool does not sit on the fence waiting for life to come to him; he always takes the first step himself. The Fool does not analyze all the possible risks of a new adventure; he learns as he goes along.

The fearlessness and sheer enthusiasm associated with The Fool makes for quite a maverick character, and often this card can signify such a person, male or female, may step into your life. It is your attitude that influences the choices and decisions you make, and often your mind is so full of doubt and fear that you become closed-minded to the possibilities of change.

When The Fool appears, ask yourself how open-minded you are being at that moment in time, how enthusiastic are you about life, and do you desire new experiences and excitement but fear taking that first step?Any journey starts with the first step, and motivating yourself to take it is the hardest part. The Fool encourages you to discover your inner child and harness that youthful enthusiasm to help you on your way to a new life and future.

A time to exercise caution is when The Fool comes up as the first card in a reading for you. You may want to question your motives or judgment, since as this is the first card, it can indicate folly. Perhaps you are motivated for the wrong reasons, so look before you leap. You will have to deal with many twists and turns, paths and crossroads on your life journey and The Fool can help as a sign post when you need to take a new path.

2010-03-25T20:53:00.004+08:00

I can choose either to be a victim of the world or an adventurer in search of treasure. It's all a question of how i view my life.

Most people get onto a roller coaster in search of excitement, but that once it starts, they are terrified and want the cars to stop as the bends that make them terrified and sick.

What do they expect? Having chosen adventure, shouldn't they be prepared to go the whole way? Or do they think that the intelligent thing to do would be to avoid the ups and downs and spend all their time on a carousel, going round and round on the spot?

Life is a fast, dizzying game like a roller coaster, Life is a parachute jump; it's taking chances, falling over and getting up again; Life is like mountaineering; it's wanting to get to the very top of yourself and to feel angry and dissatisfied when you don't manage it.

However, if i believe that the track is my destiny and that God is in charge of the machine, then the nightmare becomes something thrilling. It become exactly what it is, a roller coaster..safe and a reliable toy, which will eventually stop, but while the journey last, look around at the surrounding landscape and whoop with excitement.

Do i choose my Life or Chosen by fate?

2010-03-25T00:01:00.007+08:00

Profound desire, true desire is the desire to be close to someone. From that point onwards, things change, the man and the woman come into play, but what happens before- the attraction that brought them together- is impossible to explain. It is untouched desire in its purest state.

When desire is still in this pure state, the man and the woman fall in love with life, they live each moment reverently, consciously, always ready to celebrate the next blessing.

When people feel like this, they are not in a hurry, they do not precipitate events with unthinking actions. They know that the inevitable will happen, that what is real always finds a way of revealing itself. When the moment comes, they do not hesitate, they do not miss an opportunity, they do not let slip a single magic moment, because they respect the importance of each second.

`A broken heart is the worst. It’s like having broken ribs. Nobody can see it, but it hurts every time you breathe.

2010-03-20T20:09:00.015+08:00

According to Plato, at the beginning of creation, men and women were not as they are now; there was just one being, who was rather short, with a body and a neck, but his head had two faces, looking in different directions. It was as if two creatures had been glued back to back, with two sets of sex organs, four legs and four arms.

The Greek gods, however, were jealous, because this creature with four arms could work harder; with its two faces, it was always vigilant and could not be taken by surprise; and its four legs meant that it could stand or walk for long periods at a time without tiring. Even more dangerous was the fact that the creature had two different sets of sex organs and so needed no one else in order to continue reproducing.

Zeus, the supreme lord of Olympus, said:"I have a plan to make these mortals lose some of their strength."

And he cut the creature in two with a lightning bolt, thus creating man and woman. This greatly increased the population of the world, and, at the same time, disoriented and weakened its inhabitants, because now they had to search for their lost half and embrace it and, in that embrace, regain their former strength, their ability to avoid betrayal and the stamina to walk for long periods of time and to withstand hard work. That embrace in which the two bodies re-fuse to become one again is what we call Sex.

Happy Birthday

2010-03-16T23:59:00.007+08:00

"It must have been a rainy day when you were born because the heavens were crying because it lost its most beautiful angel."

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY!

Denise Tan Hui Yi-Today is your day! ENJOY IT TO THE FULLEST(:

Not a teen nimore, can't do what young people are doing now, the moment you reaches 2. Gosh, time flies..nono, it vanish. This year is a transition year for both of us, all the best in your studies, career & marriage, opps! HAha..So sorry, next year when you are officially 21 then i will get you KAMA SUTRA(i know you have always wanted it..online or books?) or you prefer the Apple flavoured? xP

2010-03-14T23:20:00.006+08:00

Paulo Coelho is my favourite author, his books are inspiring & impactful. "Eleven Minutes" is a good book that you cannot miss, recommend for those above 21 due to it's sexual contents. The first person who introduce me to this author is Mr P.B; a perfect man. The book entitled "The Alchemist" by Paulo Coelho was his first gift for me. I love reading books, really. Though it doesn't sound convincing..but i really do. I spent 2 days to finish up "Eleven Minutes" and here im typing the review of it.

This true story is based on a Brazilian young girl, Maria whose first innocent brushes with love leave her heartbroken. At a tender age, she becomes convinced that she will never find true love, believing that love is a terrible thing that will make you suffer. A chance meeting in Rio takes her to Geneva, where she dream of finding fame and fortune. Instead she end up working as a prostitute.

In Geneva, Maria drifts further and further away from love as she develops a fascination with sex. Eventually, Maria's despairing view of love is put into test when she meet a handsome and famous painter; Ralf. In this odyssey of self-discovery, Maria has to choose pursuing a path of darkness, sexual pleasure of it's own sake, or risking everything to find her own "inner light" and the possibility of sacred sex, sex in the context of love.

I felt an unusual closeness with this story, it's seem to be speaking of my story..except that i do not have a profession as a legal prostitute and im not as lucky as Maria to have a cinema screen like happy endings. Making mistakes is just part of life and i do not think that the choice to be with you and the time that i spent with you is a mistake. I'd realise that sometimes you get no second chance and that it's best to accept the gifts the world offers you. No one owns anything, that everything is an illusion-and that applies to material and spiritual things. Anyone who has lost something they thought was their forever, finally comes to realise that nothing really belongs to them. And if nothing belongs to me, then there's no point wasting my time looking after things that aren't mine; it's best to live as if today were the first(or last) day of my life.

Im not a body with a soul, im a soul that has a visible part called body. And all souls need love to survive. I learnt that freedom only exists when love is present. The person who gives him or herself wholly, the person who feels freest is the person who loves most wholeheartedly. In love, no one can harm anyone else; we are each of us responsible for our own feelings and cannot blame someone else for what we feel. I t hurt when i lost the man that i fell in love with. Now though im convinced that No One Loses Anyone, Because No One Owns Anyone. That is the true experience of freedom: having the most important thing in the world without owning it.

The only regrets that i had, was not with you for the last night, to fly over to the airport and speak of the unspoken words. I do not know why im here talking about all these..i just hope that some passer-by angels will pass this eternal blessings to you cause i dont think you will ever read my blog. im not exaggerating, you are the perfect man. The perfect man who should and will be with the perfect woman. Now i can finally understand the true essence of "Not concern of been together for eternity, but content with the times that we once ever had". -what a bad translation! I will not exchange anything for the days that i spent with you. You are someone that i will and i cannot forget. This is your favourite song, sweet nuts. with your iphone. (:

"Here she was nothing, and being nothing meant that she could be everything she ever dreamed of"
-Paulo Coelho,Eleven Minutes.

2010-03-08T00:17:00.003+08:00

The movie "Alice in wonderland" is just another "Alice in wonderland" story. Just alil modification in the storyline. The only part that i like will be JOHNNY DEPP in that movie. Though he's 47 this year, he still posses some charisma in him. Those who know me, they know that i love older men. Muahahas.

Why isn't there "Julia in wonderland"? I wish to drop into some rabbit's hole and fall into a wonderland and meet new stuffs! To fulfil the 6 impossible things. I love adventurous stuff and Life on earth is ... & craps..i itchy-backside did not apply fer any local U. sheesh~i hate CROSSROADS. Tell me what to do can..? It's such a hassle to be a homosapien unlike animals, they just gotta mate & mate, run away from predators, find food sources. Human brain is too much of a complex (reminded me of C-Paradox).

2010-03-04T20:07:00.004+08:00

It's like finally, FINALLY! God damn finally! last paper in Nanyang P. fer Dip in M.Biotechnology. The mad schedule, the insane amount of modules in every Sem, the crazy amount of workload..they are all GONE! phew. It's doesn't seem like 3 yrs had passed, instead..it's like i had spent 10 yrs in there. The physically & mentally stress cum tiring period in my entire life. ohmyfreakinggosh..i had sacrifice my beauty sleep fer Reports, Projs, Presentations,Tests, Exams~Never-ending!!craps shit. On top of these torturing elements..i freaking hate projs-work in NYP! Freeloaders, attitude probs, lousy quality of products. i had to tolerate all these..i've been slogging like a bull :(

MB is like the most tedious, intensive course in Poly? All of my poly friends ended their exam like so freaking early & i gotta mug before CNY all the way till weeks after CNY. My entire family members & friends are asking me when's my exam gonna end. So unfair! sheesh~
Alright..now im sort of "free". im gonna accomplish all these things during these months time. They are:

1)To lose weight [i'll be intensively exercising to remove excess lipids so who wanna join me?(:]
2)To have a balance diet & healthy sleeping time
3)To do eyes & face mask; get rid of my super-duper DARK-circles!
4)To get a job so who have lobang? Please feel free to contact me @ 9******9
5)To meet up with my friends & sweetie & honey & whatsoever-i know you guys missed me! xp
6)To really plan what mi gonna do afterwards,im @ the crossROAD. im so "blurred"
7)To have a complete make-over!

That's it fer now! ciao readers!

2010-01-16T01:44:00.004+08:00

OMGOSHH!#$%#$%&^%!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so damn hot!

24-year-old Ronaldo maintain his body by doing 3,000 sit-ups a day?! such a perfect physique! Who doesn't love it?!

2010-01-14T23:07:00.003+08:00

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2010-01-10T22:46:00.003+08:00

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2010-01-09T20:41:00.003+08:00

I SAW MY ROAD! (:

I know what's my plan for the future & i shall write & speak it out! Melbourne here i come!!

Thank God for IDP which make life real easier for many who wanna apply for Aussie uni. Didn't know Uni of Queensland is the hot favourite now..Followed by my all times favourite Uni of Melbourne! The queue for consultation is longgz. However, after all my doubts were cleared, i am super motivated to realise my dream, a dream that once seem impossible but with God! ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE! This is amazing, Pst Kong & Pst Tan have been preaching bout dreams & visions lately which is at the absolute correct timing. My life is now filled with hopes & excitement, something that moolah can't buy. I agree, we gotta let go of all our past & get hold of our vision! Cause if we wait for it, it will surely come to pass! AMEN.

im reaching for it, what bout you? We only have a life to live. Once you get pass this opportunity, there will never be another chance for you. Do not live life with regrets.(that's my line) Though it's an old saying but it's very true.

Though now im under tremendous stress due to the 10 modules that im taking this semester, i believed. It's all worth it!

2010-01-01T21:47:00.004+08:00

FYI. the previous post is not a song ! every single sentences and words means a lot. Hahas. I didn't know i could write songs..hahas not funny.

My new year skin for myself. I love this naked skin. It's gorgeous. Don't argue with me. hahas.

It's New year=2010! Time to thrash off our 2009 calender! a festive season to be celebrated with your love ones. Here im, under my cosy roof typing. Trying to complete the huge pile of my projects and my 1K words essay! ewww. Most of my friends are busy with their boyfriends or school work.im So lonelyyy...omygosh!

Time flies. I don't deny that im old. 2 MORE MONTHS! That's my motivation! Year 2009 is just like another year, just that it's totally horrible to the extent that im wordless. I just pray, hope, wish that the bad had passed & the good shall be at my doorstep. So what's my new year resolution? My New year resolution was to be happy for the past years but it had not been met so this year i shall had a different one. It's to make peeps around me happy. That's easier to achieve. hahas.

However, im still thankful for what i have now. All of my friends are a blessing to me. They are who that make my life worthwhile. I am deeply grateful and thankful for all that had crossed my path. The best awesome period in 2009 will be in gsk. The friends that i made and to even know nuts, that's the best damn thing in my life. To see you almost everyday in gsk is my motivation to wake up early in the morning..hehe.You are amazingly suave, charming. It's a great honour to spend time with you. You are just amazing, so as your life. i guess you are the hottest man that i have ever known. It's my pleasure nuts.

I missed watching howcast.com with you, i missed your teases, i missed your warm hugs, i missed your lemon barley, i missed watching the pirated movie in your lappie with you, i missed your hilarious laughter, i missed the times when you sing and played the guitar though it sound funny, i missed your smell, i missed your night's calls, i missed arguing with you though i don't usually win, i missed you correcting me bout just now and a while ago, it's cute. i missed our russberrie, & i missed you correcting my bad habits which amazingly only you found out, every single second is deem as in heaven, these are my precious.

&& i love Counting Down The Days by Natalie Imbruglia! this song makes me tears! Her song is superbly good, & her voice is good, & the lyrics is soo meaningful and true, with a sense of touch of real feelings. i'd hold you so tight.

I agree. Live life free & easy. Enjoy the present(:

Truly, Madly, Deeply, it's not over.. . .

2009-12-18T23:47:00.038+08:00

Across the oceans, over the mountains
& above the hills.
what i found is you.

you are virtually everywhere,
in my mind, my dreams,
& my heart.

how dramatic life is,
& how creative God is?

to allow love to be filled in our hearts,
yet not a choice to be happy with.

this is my love in silence.
my pretty handsome boy.

you're the another half of apple
that i have been searching for..

How amazing love is,
to fall for that only one
out of 6.804 billion of the world population.

The one & only one
who make's your heart thump like never before,
who make's you blush when you see him,
who make's you go gaga over him.

A stranger you were once,
This is the special bond that we embrace.

From the moment you enter my life,

there's nothing else matters

If I could have just one wish,

I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...

Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.

The best part about about being in-love

is when you just love a person

& you are happy about it.

Even that person can never be yours,

even if you know it can't last forever.

That's the true essence of love-

It's not about winning someone

with the simplest wish,

i don't deny i am aready missing you nuts

You are all that i want for christmas

i wish you knew

everything i do i do it for you

can we elope?

the way.

2009-12-01T23:27:00.002+08:00

“The truth is, everybody is going to hurt you, you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for.”

99 balloons that blessed me.

2009-11-28T01:07:00.011+08:00

Job 1:21 "God Gives. God Takes. God's Name Be Ever Blessed."

this time what I want is you

there is no one else

who can take your place

this time you burn me with your eyes

you see past all the lies

you take it all away

I've seen it all

and it's never enough

it keeps leaving me needing you

take me away

I've got nothing left to say

just take me away

I try to make my way to you

but still I feel so lost

I don't know what else I can do

I've seen it all

and it's never enough

it keeps leaving me needing you

take me away

I've got nothing left to say

just take me away

don't give up on me yet

don't forget who I am I

know I'm not there yet

but don't let me stay here alone

this time what I want is you

there is no one else

who can take your place

I've seen enough and it's never enough

it keeps leaving me needing you

take me away

I've got nothing left to say

just take me away

take me away

I've got nothing left to say

just take me away

Perhaps,

I'am going to elope to ______.

With ______.

For ______ years.

With expenses of _______ K.

& i still believe.

If you understand, that's good! If not..it's okay.((:

Oh yeah! something weird bout me is that when im sick..i tend to have a hole in my stomach. This saying is prove when i can't stop eating for these few weeks,..cough like mad.Guess i have TB.ha. Talking bout this..i am still hungry after eating 2 portion of lunch.. -_-.. i NEED FOOD. "FOOD RIOT!"

2009-11-21T20:21:00.008+08:00

THE PERFECT GIRLFRIEND?

Yes, she exists. And NO, she’s NOT the supermodel type with the long legs and perfect skin. She’s even BETTER. She’s the type of girl that looks BORING, the one you’d overlook —she’d be your LAST choice.

At worst she’s insecure, clingy, shallow, jealous, nagging, SENSITIVE, EMOTIONAL, DRAMATIC and annoying. But if you can’t handle her at her worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve her at her best.

So, what is a PERFECT GIRLFRIEND?

They say there’s no such thing as perfection and that she doesn’t exist. Oh trust me, SHE DOES.

She dresses up all cute and pretty every time YOU take her out on a date. This is her way of keeping YOU interested as your eyes are locked solely on her. You stare at other girls instead, and she gets hurt and upset that all her time and effort were put to waste.

YOU CALL HER INSECURE.

She holds on to YOU like she’s never letting YOU go. This is her way of telling other girls that she’s lucky that she has YOU, and no, YOU’re not available.

YOU CALL HER CLINGY.

She calls YOU the sweetest nicknames, or ones that only YOU two will understand. This is her way of saying how special YOU are, and that there’s nobody else in this world like YOU. You call other girls “BABE” just as how YOU would call her, and she gets disappointed.

YOU CALL HER SHALLOW AND JEALOUS.

She checks up on YOU, making sure YOU made it home safely or that YOU’re not out getting yourself into any kind of trouble. This is her way of showing how often she thinks about YOU and that she worries constantly because that’s how much she cares.

YOU SAY SHE’S NAGGING.

She cries when YOU do or say something wrong. This is her way of saying “that hurts only because YOU said it and I LOVE YOU.”

YOU CALL HER OVERLY SENSITIVE AND EMOTIONAL.

She loves YOU more than YOU love her. This is her way of dealing with the FACT that your relationship wasn’t like how it used to be.

YOU CALL HER DRAMATIC AND ANNOYING.

So go ahead. Leave the insecure, clingy, jealous, nagging, OVERLY SENSITIVE, annoying girl. She will soon be much happier in the arms of someone who actually deserves her: the PERFECT boyfriend.

crossroad.

2009-11-11T20:22:00.002+08:00

Heart weary as the rainy days.
CROSSROAD.
WE WILL MEET AGAIN, SOMEDAY.

Usted es así que cerca con todo hasta ahora a mí, millones de palabras pegados en mi boca, deseo realmente escupir todo el éstos & ocultado; palabras burried. Tengo el valor a. Puedo mascar solamente mis palomitas en el silencio, manteniendo todos mis rasgones mi corazón. I can' t le dejó considerar mis rasgones así que mentí. Le dije que estoy muy bien pero estoy en absoluto. Cómo deseo no despertaré de este sueño los míos. ¿Dios donde está usted?
i wanna stay in your eyes.

the star loses it's shine tonight

2009-11-09T20:48:00.009+08:00

the star is right on my palm but i can't hold or grasp on to it or else it will lose it's shine, in order to let it shine, i got to let go of it. take good care of yourself sweetie.

waterfall on my face.u're laughing away & my pretence laughter came.this time round it's silent. swear not to get attached again before i finished my studies so my woman please remind me and take care of me. she's as weak as a fallen twig. she look strong,she look happy, she look fine,are you sure about it? it's all under her mask. when it's remove, tears will be rushing like never before, like how a dam is destroyed. wish you can understand how i feel, wish you will be there.just there.there's a lot of question why.i guess the perfect answer is that i don't deserve you. i lost faith. In everything. Here i am, naked without weapon, bare hearted. Many people say i am silly, everyone is laughing at me, even you and me. i don't know what to do. Why am i so naive or stupid? it's just me. i am holding my breath, why am i like a shit. i don't know either. IS THIS LIFE? seriously i think it's hell for me. Not trying to be emo or something but really,..seeing how my "life" had passed, better be dead than living. Trying her best to lead a happy life but fate disallow, but fate reject me, but FATE KILLS ME.jinx me. this time is different. i don't know why. Here iam, washing my face with tears again, who knows? God knows. i need ample rest from this, i need strength to carry on, i need a forgetful mind to forgets about everythings. im not pitiful nor weak. iam who i am. though i do not have a happy and peaceful life, though i lost in this battle, though i loses you. i will be alright then. catch me when i fall/-

~~wish upon a star(:~~

real happiness.<3

2009-11-06T22:14:00.008+08:00

Before my life turns into N0-life, i better get my butt before the pc to spread my love to you!!!..awwwW..Kidding.

Let's do some picture discussion..what can you infer from the picture below?

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VIOLA~

a typical couple hugging?? Beautiful scenery? Nah.

`This is heaven; & i send my greatest blessing to you and eugene ((:

Again i teared in joy seeing how lovely ms tan & mr ng have been. It's rare to cry in joy! really! It's like i can feel the lovely atmosphere as well, bliss feeling. Regardless of the obstacles, you guys stand strong with each other(: Problems are there to be solve, & not running away from them. So remember this! i am waiting to be your bridesmaids.

Why do we need relationship so much?
"To form stable, affectionate connections to others gives evolutionary adaptive, & reproductive advantage"

It's a great blessing to share your emotions, your life, your world to someone special. Knowing that it's not easy to find your "the other half". Racing throughout your life, what have you obtained? fame & wealth? These are important but definitely not the priorities in your life for Love makes the world goes round, nothing but true relationship. You can live and bury yourself with money but what if there's no one to celebrate with you? You are in fact not happy.

In life, the best thing will always be the simplest things. Human's mind is the most complex substance in the entire universe, the brain weighs on average about 3 lb (1.5 kg) and can you believe/imagine how this tiny brain can transmit million and zillion of signals to the cells in our body. Cell communication; the ligands and the receptors! which is To keep the body going on in everyday of our life, renewal of cells and secreting hormones etc which makes us happy. That's how amazing our God is.

From wikipedia, it says "Happiness is a state of mind or feeling characterized by contentment, love, satisfaction, pleasure, or joy." The pursuit of happiness? Some met the one early in their life, some met in later part of their life whereas some may not even meet the one.. staying alone fer the rest of their life where i may belong to this category in the future. Been an old maid. How complicated and how simple a relationship can be? all this troubles come from the complex human mind because it's complex! and thus will make things complicated! whoahahs. Stay positive, everything gonna be alright for God is Omnipotent(:

Stay happy, no worries.

"A smile is a curve that sets everything straight"

2009-11-05T15:56:00.010+08:00

a picture speaks a thousand words,
a smile transmits a million love.
(:

p.s to those who crossed my path and felt my warmth smile, this is the time to tell you that you're loved. Where L-ove has no EX-PIRATION date. *

drugs for the soul.

2009-11-03T21:37:00.004+08:00

desire for a hug. too.
like how a lil' girl desire for a lolli.

How i wish. . .

2009-10-25T17:22:00.003+08:00

zzzzz..

tired.

Last semester ALREADY.! they must be mad, giving us 10 modules-_-''..electives 2 modules ALREADY.! okok.sheesh.Life is like that.No worries, it's part and parcel of life. Juls love to talk to herself though.

Hahahs..can you believe i tears when i saw Mr Ng's FB-wall. I felt super relieved, glad, happy that finally the right man has crossed your path & changed your life. I can tell that he's the one for you woman,..cause he really dote on you. Find someone who love you more than you love him. (it's true & that's the most important afterall!) shall let Mr Ng take care of you from now onwards..A load off my minds. Finally you ren yao.jkjk..yao xin fu oo. Woman are not complicated creatures oright! So men out there please remove this wrong mentality(; All they need is a sense of security. simple yet sweet. life is like that.

when the birds meet the bees. (or vice versa)

2009-10-02T11:53:00.014+08:00

okay..this is a very out of the norm post.

`trigger by many factors.

Recently i have heard many news on shotgun marriages where i know the person, but not that close. Yes i know when a couple have that special moment of time/mood, they tend to do silly things. Irregardless of the consequences..I was pretty surprised/shocked to hear that girls of my age are pregnant and getting married?! Theoretically, this is the best age to excel in studies and to prepare ourselves in embarking a new journey in life. BUT but why? accidents do happen, that's why it's called ACCIDENT. Unplanned marriages & unplanned pregnancy..Having pleasure at that moment of time will lead to destruction of a bright future. Is it worth it? nah! not at all! Both the parties will definitely lose out cause they have to start a family at a young age where they are not fully matured or prepared for it. Thus in the long run, everything ends up with a letter of DIVORCE. A waste of youth certainly. By that time when one look back, they will be laughing at themselves for committing such a grave mistakes yet they do not see it when they are young.Blinded as usual.

Life is short. Really. We have not seen the beautiful world outside so please don't confine yourself to that lil world of yours,..Mother nature is simply fascinating, beyond words description. Hop with your backpack and travel round the world, that's what i will do when i have enough capital! whee. Fulfil your dreams, never live a life of regrets.

Was watching 2 movies yesterday due to boredom at home, was pretty sick of what i saw. Supposedly these 2 movies, "Don't mess with the zohan" & "The hangover" were credited as a comedy show. But how do i freaking know that they contain alil too much adult contents! Nudity and disturbing scenes thruout..-__-'''' wahlao! seriously! those who have not watch please don't even try to watch them. The contents should really be rated as R21..they do contaminate and dirty our mind-__- Nowadays, everywhere you will be expose to all these "adult contents", whether in the movies, magazines, Internet or thru the technology like the mobile phones. Young kids are seriously getting from bad to worse. Watching pornography as early as the age of 10?! I know it's guy nature to watch it But it's definitely bad for the mind + soul. Consequences; May bring forth a pervert in the future,..some flasher or rapist??LOLs.

What happen to all their parents and teachers in school. Both of them played an important role in guiding them to the correct path. Don't find excuses please. No matter what, you guys are responsible for them even though IT is due to the broken world outside. Bad to worse environment. Parents out there can counsel their children, or speak to them with their past experiences. Never feel shy or find it inappropriate to talk. Never ever delay the problem, if not.. psychological effect will be brought upon them. Their future is in your hand. It's no fault of theirs so don't try to condemn them. It's human nature, the same story when Adam's eyes were "opened" due to Deadly Temptation. BLAH.

Oh my gosh! such a long post about this explicit contents..lols. In conclusion, girls out there please protect yourself no matter what. Even though the dad of the baby agree to take up the responsibility. Still! You will be bringing troubles to your family, they will be superbly upset and embarrassed for having children with all these nonsensical troubles. Heart-broken, hidden tears from them. So be a smart person, even though you wanna have fun, use protection lah! OR self-Control lah! hahas..So Norlimah & i have start out this "Use Condom" Campaign,..she's the manager and im the shareholder..LOLs. Who wanna join? closing date will be the end of this month. Xp

2009-08-23T22:11:00.010+08:00

Sweets for my sweet.

SINful Delight's

here i am..trying to update on more stuff happening in my L-I-F-E.

21August' 2009= Last day of attachment = Sad.

For the past 12 weeks in GSK, i really enjoyed my stay in tuas. It's more of the friendship than anything else (:

From various departments, not only the Bio team, but also the chemistry, logistics, TS, CNN and even the cleaners! awww..i miss the people over there! The jokes that they make, the stuff that we talked about and even the teasing! lols. Had free foods again and again! Thanks you guys!

Gone with the cheap food in the cafeteria..
Gone with the pantry's milo..
Gone with the nap in the bus..
Gone with the gowning and ungowning..
Gone with the gym..
Gone with the reading of newspapers in the office..
etc.

19th

2009-07-21T20:51:00.015+08:00

Juicy 19th (:

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Since primary school. 10 over years.

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The Classics.

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Everyone change alot, Irene getting cuter and more HANDSOME. I may fall for her soon. Hahs.

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Me and my Harry' 1982 (fyi..I am not drinking dirt..lols)

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My love for heels! Isn't it sexy?

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This thing i tried for the 1st time and for the last time, made me choked for how many freaking times. Melon and it's sucked. Though it's really meant to be suck. ..I'd die from choking rather than lung cancer man.

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See how woman sucked it, naughty!

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Spot something. Yes!

Basically that's what i did on the 18th, was working then so changed to my sexy heels and lovely dress. Walked from my working place to orchard train station where thousands of eyes were staring at me. I thought i was some animals in the zoo at that moment of time. Men were leering at me which was so damn gross. Many even talked to me. =_=''. For once, i wanted to be a man. And i was surprised that Irene came to Clarke Quay! Thanks woman! ( it's raining in the bar)

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Tiny Fish at the background!

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Besties fer life! (:

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Belated B'day girl digging for rubbish!

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I simply lovee this mug man! Tweety with my name on it. Sweet.
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All the new foods' item from Swensen.

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Hideous//whohoohoo.

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That's when 3 bored-random people came together.

Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!
For all those who text me and wrote on my fb's wall :D
You know who you are.

Even my attachment company! You guys absolutely nice! Bought cakes from Bengawan Solo and invite the QC team to celebrate both my B'day and GorGor, plus Cecilia farewell.

Thanks Stephen for that pink guava juice as well!
Thanks Cg fer the Ang pow!
Thanks everyone in my family, even my aunties!
In conclusion, i had the best 19th B'day(: "Sweet"

2009-07-12T00:18:00.004+08:00

(:(:(:(:(:(:

Where should i start...too many (exciting) things had happened!!

hmm..lets start off with...!!!

yesterday! 10July=GSK Fruit's day!
OMG!! i REALLY love GSK.
They always have some interesting events that surprises me!

At 4p.m SHARP.. ALL of us chiong to cafeteria for our fruits fiesta! Lols. Our dearest gorgor helped us to choose the mango and i must say it's damn sweet! Then we had the mangosteen too. AND after these 2 fruits, gorgor and Ms Bee Keow chiong outside the buildings fer DURIAN and rambutan. As you know, the moment you had durian you can't step into the buildings, let alone the LABS.!! GSK reallly a rich company. They had all sorts of durian, from D24 to "Mao shang wang" I will never touch them! xD

Then Stephen the "handsome" out of nowhere touch my face while he was savouring his durian =_= Can't stand him! hahas. And! i forgot to add-ons the wonderful news which is.....
Mr Quee the boss of QC team invited the 3 of us to their BBQ cum night cycling @ Changi!! And it's all FREEEEEEEEE! They really treat us as one of them. Feel so touched man.

They had stand-up meetings and were told to have carpool. Ms Bee Keow had a wonderful conversation with a lady who were arranged to drive her to Changi..The lady driver was telling Ms Bee Keow not to talk, not to open her mouth and not to fart when she was in her car cos of DURIAN..!HAHAS! And then..we followed Cherry car! Our dearest supervisor :) We collected our bikes 1st and rode to the chalet..and the bungalow was #19 (: BBQ started and we don't have to move our hands cause they hired 2 man to bbq for us!! (yeah i know, damn rich). The salmon was good! Wanted to have more but had to play "taitee" with the biggest boss of GSK in singapore..lols..You know what, he said back in Belgium the Spade is the smallest?! hahas..randomness. okok..

AND everyone was shocked when me and bear shared Heineken..lols..i only drank a few sips okayyy :D I am certainly over the age to drink man. Don't worry guys! And after the bbq prawn, i had some allergic rxn(IgE). Gorgor asked me to drink more beer to kill away the itchiness..lols. AND it works! At 9p.m we started our race, im sorry to say we "drink biking"..Hahas! It's a great place to ride along the path where the plane took off!

Night cycling is fun! WITH the right peoples! I was really waiting fer Ms Bee Keow, Gorgor and bear fer a long time..but stephen and Jansen asked me to ride 1st so i did..lols. Then saw people giving up and left me, Arnold, jiejie andLaipeng. None of us know how to ride to Changi point so we stopped and discussed and decided to bike straight. Then Stephen and Jansen came and lead the way. But WHO knows gorgor and the rest didn't give up!! We went to Changi Village and took a break..Gorgor even bring Tiger Beer to drink =_= OMGosh..it's freaking long man/...the journey to and fro was like 25KM!! My butt and back hurt like crap! PLUS i wore skinny jeans and high cut=_= We reach @ around 12.15am and home sweet home! Cherry sent us back home(: They are really sweet peoples. Can't bear to leave GSK =(

And i love my job in Dan Ryan toooo! I learnt many new skills over there, gain knowledge of FOODS. Had tests fer appetisers last wk and i passed. Moving on to soups and salads. Though the boss is super duper fierce, but sometimes she still treat me quite good eh. Had free soups and food over there from her!

okok..it's late. Story will End here. Wait patiently fer a week.

before i leave..

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST AZZIE!! <3
You are turning 19 0n the 13 :D

2009-07-03T23:36:00.003+08:00

CONFESSION OF A WORKAHOLIC.

2 jobs, 1 attachment
^ that's me!

dearest darlins and women out there, iam free only on mon after attachment..which is like 6.30pm at woodlands. Pls remember to "fix" a time as this woman is extremely BUSY. Work filled 3/4 of my life right now, the rest left for sleeping time.

New working environment over the restaurant, nice and cosy ambiance. But the people over there are kinda "weird". Only a few are "normal", that's include my dearest bro and me myself! omgosh! My bro is damn funny..as usual..we will talk over in msn when we're just few metres away from each other under the same roof and we were discussing how abnormal the people can be..Then out came the conversation about my further education and he actually told me that one day i will just take my husband money and be a house wife so i don't have to work so hard now!? Lols~Obviously yours truly can never be an old hag!! Cos I am gonna be a career woman!

And he actually asked me if i will only stay single for a month only? i was like -_-?? Since when juls is attached?! she has been single since...forever? lols.. Not so soon she's gonna break her zero record.! Talking about my bro..! he's the best choice for those seeking long term relationship..lols.

He's gentleman,
charismatic,
responsible,
talented,
kind+compassion,
intelligent,
tall,
good looking,
filial,
humorous and much more!! A magician plus a good cook xD

^this is what i called a real MAN! my ideal partner x)

Pardon me fer been Too busy..this is where i really enjoyed myself (:

2009-06-23T21:56:00.004+08:00

A blonde woman goes to the doctor and complains that her whole body is aching. She touches her knee and says: "Ouch! That hurt". She then touches her elbow which evokes yet another painful response. She then touches her ear and complains that it is sensitive too. The doctor then examines her and says: "Well, Madam, I am sure that will be the case - your finger is broken."

^thats why they say "dumb blonde!"

work work work..

sheesh, im no much better than you woman. You OL, me will never be one. I can't stay in the office fer the entire day, i need to walk around and talk, and talk. I am becoming more like you, or worse than you. Literally working from mon-sun. *yawn...Though physically worn out, a sense of fulfilment and satisfaction rush thru my blood. An Epinephrine, that's the word. Yeah, i absolutely agree that peace may be found thru works, piles of work. The fact that time passes by fast, getting unnecessary thoughts outta mind, focus on the right things, the best medicine woman! i support you. i shall kope your sentence; "I SOLD MY SOUL TO THE DEVIL (TOO)". Working is (:

kinda stressful as well, so many things to learn at that restaurant. I swear it's a celebrities' restaurant! I seen TONS of celebrities in just 2 days time. Those who love to "chase" after stars should visit this restaurant. No kid. Can you believed what i saw?! A sama waitress get hugged, nono, i should say pulling her waist towards him by this "Black" for like 10s or more? no kid. I was literally stoning and watching them. How INTERESTING this job can be. So many "friendly" customers..whoohoo. i may get one soon too.

damn. getting too workaholic i guess. Got to work even on my 19th. For 18 freaking years i had been celebrating on this day of mine. Gotta break the tradition man. I guess i can't have my drinking session on my day. Woman!! My 19 kisses! Guess i shall have it alone on the next day. What to do..hope there wont be any hangover cause i will be working!..who wanna join me ?? pls feel free to :D If not.. i shall have my one night affair again!

2009-06-17T20:42:00.004+08:00

Oh well,it has become a weekly post i guess.

Let's start off with the "secondary school kids!"..always disturbing the cleaners..lols.me too,sometimes. The new sealer came! yes it is more expensive and high-tech but apparently it of a more hassle for bulky items. And! all of them; lee ying, bee keow, cecilia and nela were extremely excited about this new machine in the office! They were taking turns to try out this new sealer which cost $4k that produce 7 seals. Aha! yes there's roller in it and it is a smart machine But..it does has its con.

Oh ya! there quite a handful of Caucasians in gsk. Found 2 Darth Vader from Belgium who has extremely low voice. Never seem to understand their english. They are freaking tall as well!(and some are quite hot!)

I simply love this Site Safety Induction Course! Mr Ong is simply-absolutely Humorous!! was laughing thruout the whole talk! I swear those who are sad or depressed will be all well again due to his extremely funny speech! All due to the 8 Bangladesh workers!! wahahas!

And all started out by,...taking individual photos fer the site's card.

8 Bangladesh workers came into this small office and he asked the other guy who is in-charge of them to call out their names for the photo parade! thats what he said. =_= He actually said to us that "all look the same" and call them number one, number two and so on..lols.

Every slides will have some funny parts! (Cause the workers seem to be clueless about what he is talking about).

The most funny part is the ladder!! Cause he gotta explain that fibre-glass ladder could only be used at the construction site but he don't know how to simplify further so he said.."all those that you know such as aluminum, iron ladders cannot be used, BUT all those that you DON'T KNOW can be used!! like what the crap~~what if the ones they don't know is iron and they use it!! omg!

The harness part is funny tooooo! He asked if they know where to anchor it..but apparently anchor is a big word for them to digest, so he changed it to hook. But none of them seem to response so he asked us what other words could be used! And the sk1 bear told him to use "hang". That's kinda inappropriate but in layman term its considered right..Lol.

Mr ong actually doubt them if they know toilet!! thats like....OMGOSH! okok..and his actions is damn funny i swear! He asked them if they knows what's inside the small bag of harness, and he simply tried to open the bag from a 2D ppt slide??! And his action of people dying was like..teaching lil kids?(the wriggling index finger if you know what i mean).

AND ALMOST EVERY SLIDE HE WILL SAY "ALI BABA" =_=''
This is the best safety talk i had ever attend!! Not dry at all! You can't bear to doze off!!

I had surprise(s) on weds~

A lil baby lizard found which was like reddish body..stared at me fer quite some time. Supposingly iam not afraid of lizard, only cockroaches..i have no idea why i start to scream when it seem to be charging towards me=_=

The free shuttle bus is scary i swear! Back to woodland station..i was sitting at the inner seat right behind sk1 bear and was sleeping in the bus as usual cause it's a long ride back..i woke up like 10 mins before reaching causeway point and was admiring the scenery when i saw this lil orange spider out of nowhere crawling about at the front seat of the head rest..i tried to maintain my coolness and my image by not screaming cause i know people are sleeping in the buses! I asked wanhua if needed to change seats but she thinks it's alright cause the bus was reacing soon so i focus at the spider, fearing if it will do anything stupid. VIOLA~ it scare the crap out of me when it suddenly slide down with its spiddy web with less than a metre away from my thigh!! As usual, immediately i screamed=_= and tried to push wanhua to the other seat so i can ESCAPE!! People were staring at me man! ohmyGosh~ damn malu luh~
I am not going to be a spiderwoman any time soon alright!

i can't stand insects or whatever gross stuff to touch my bare skin! ewwness!

I love sampling water!! i admit my feet are small..gotta wear my shoes in the boots=_= which was like "shoe in a shoe" ..Whoo..and when stephen was wearing the full body protection..he looked like a Star Trek character! WFI=Water For Injection is damn hot; ~92 degrees Celsius. Don't play play! ok. i want to be a sampler!

GSK!

2009-06-12T23:51:00.016+08:00

A post that's meant to appear a week ago..

well, life seem pretty Busy, hectic

but unusual Fun, Joy, Strength, Laughter's, Fulfilment's seem to be rushing thru my blood as i step into this building in tuas.

In conclusion, i simply, absolutely love GSK!

I'am so blessed to have the chance to work in the new manufacturing plant of GSK in tuas, though it is very far from my house, i find it's worth it for the long travelling time. THANK GOD fer the circle line that's open at the right timing! whoohoo. im a blessed girl(:

Let's see..

a day has 24hrs,

9hours working in gsk,

2hrs x 2 =4hrs of travelling time,

1hr for bathing, eating dinner..,

8hrs of theoretically "healthy" sleeping time,

if you still can count..

24hrs-9hrs-4hrs-8hrs-1hrs=2 hrs left to do my personal stuff!

Life pass by fast then..but i enjoy it!

GSK= The Largest Vaccine Investment in Asia! The vaccine for H1N1 virus are produced by gsk too. The environment is beautiful and cosy, with not much of politics which is a good thing(:

The first day of work, as usual nothing much to do..[loves the merry-go-round door]. Learn that all staffs has their own card to access the buildings in gsk. My stay in gsk will be a short one so we take the "contractor card" which can access anywhere, expect labs. No handphones are supposed to be seen or used in the buildings except in the cafeteria!! Gosh! Not easy for many! Many interesting things had seen and happened since the 1st week of work! Such as..a dramatic view of "magic" performed at the entrance of building 2, weird supplied of goods, weird incident in the cafeteria and the pantry etc.

Talking about the cafeteria!! the food is freaking cheap bcos it's a big company and so..they subsidised some amounts for the staffs working there. And they do not have a fixed menu like our school canteen but they do have daily menu! Mon shall be blah blah, tues shall be Fish & Chip!!......

The pantry! Free flow of drinks! My fav Milo will always be the 1st to run out. The Mocha, latte and cappuccino taste great too! Funny things happened yesterday when i press for latte and it came out some weird dark bitter coffee..i thought it was black coffee but sperm killer insist that there's nth wrong with it..but the taste was nasty so i pour all away. Then in the afternoon, SK1 tried the cappuccino and it turn out dark bitter coffee again! What we heard was that the drink machine ran out of cream and sugar and thus ALL the coffee will be black coffee =_=

It was meant to be refilled on tues but PM was coming so i guess gotta wait for next tues.

Talking about PM giving a speech in gsk, even i felt kinda excited too. Seeing gsk all over the news on tues night and appeared at the front page of the newspaper the next day! Im quite attached to this company man. I love the people over here; cherry, lee ying, bee keow, arnold, cecilia, nela, elaine, ai sin, mr tham, mr tan, gor gor and many many many more! They gave us a chance to help them and learn new things from them(: Even the cleaners are friendly..lol. Gym and wrapping is fun!

I swear i'ma gonna work in this company after i graduate. Life is simply BEAUTIFUL.

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^Somewhere over clarke quay.."Shisha Lounge Bar" at level 2.

^The buffet seem tempting! (nice a-m-b-i-e-n-c-e)..very high class!

^Expensive cocktails plus extremely potent(:

^My order-"Fallen Angel"(the glass look nice.lol)

^Woman's order-"Five Wise Men" (Where's the wise one?)

^"Hand-crackers" (don't ask why)

^A tongue tingler + An all time classic

Woman stop drinking! it's bad fer health! Lols. The combination of Whisky, Gin, vermouth, creme de menth making you red like lobster! No more emo woman! Must live your life to the fullest every single second! Have a break, have a kit-kat (:

juls is happy happy happy~

loving you even deeper. thank you.

2009-06-06T00:15:00.013+08:00

OMGOSH~! so long so long~
apparently there's no photos uploaded yet soooo..till now then!(:

ima gonna declare that..
I LOVE FYP!! and i miss FYP!(tears.....)

ok. this post is specially dedicated to ALL my FYP friends(animals)!

Loads of photos coming up! wheeee! camwhore animals!

Yours truly in lab, naked fish shoppe & NYP lounge.

Surprisingly 3 months pass by so fast! The thought of doing lab daily is such a mundane chore..but but!! all the great, funny, crazy, lovely, cute friends that i know make my stay soo ENJOYABLE! Love you guys!!

1st of all!! Introduce my interesting, beautiful, lovely supervisor..!

^Ms Cherine tan!

The project that i worked on is "A New Method for Protein Purification and Nanotechnology".

My transformed husband; BL21(DE3) hrGFP ll-C ! E.coli is my best friend for the whole 3 months..

^This UNCLE junyi(Hamster)!! Soo free ah..come to lab daily to play games! lols..For the past 3 months must really thank him for all the help and patience man! sama sama blur luh!

^MAYA PAPAYA KAYA(Seal)! i will always remember us "fighting" over our lab air-con's temperature! AND thanks for letting me kope your lappie songs!! Remember..don't waste so much of your money on that packet of stuff!! hehes.

^Amanda(Panda)~rhymes!
Omgosh!! you surprised me with this cute doggie on my last day of FYP! i nearly cried =(

Thank you soo much!! Remember..must eat faster next time kay! hehes.

^Rose! (Fishy)
You and your zebra fish! Hahahas! The most friendly one and contine to crap! Thanks for your market basket ah! help me carry my favourite autoclave stuff! hahas!

^Shanyln! (Piglet)

Yo! Ah lian! hahas! so fun to disturb you! my mature friend! Remember must learn how to cut your food ah! if not next time you will die of hunger..hehes. SEE you very soon in lecture hall!

^Yitian!! (Froggie)
I love your voice when you sing "My heart will go on"..sooo nice! Thanks for your help as well!
Remember to sing Jason mraz; "i'm yours" to Eric! hehes..jk!

^Wan rong!

The new DT! thanks for cleaning my "dirty" lab! lols. DT job gonna be very busy! Hang on! Jia you!! Don't give up man!

^Daphne! (Rabbit)
I love casting gels with you! Thanks for giving me insights of studying in Australia! Oh ya! see that card she's holding! I had one fer everyone!! but all of different cats..

^Steve(Giraffe)

Si giraffe, ben giraffe, bian tai giraffe, slacker giraffe etc. more to come! lols!

so old then know giraffe have blue tongue lor! Anyone else who know giraffe have blue tongue pls tag me! hahas! Mushroom head! don't keep on walking around the lab ah, later your cough cough wrap around you!

^Andre! (Monkey)

Rose's handsome! lols. Another one so slack in lab! Incubation time damn long! lols. Must teach the new people already.!

^Isaac!(amandy best friend!)
I love the song "More than words" that you played for me! Must teach me how to play kay!

^ IN LAB(S) :D

^@ NYP LOUNGE! (DEAREST MS TAN ORDERED PIZZA AND ALL OF US PLAYED POOL, KARAOKE, MASSAGE CHAIRS ETC.)

You guys make a difference in my life! the best part of fyp is making loads of cranky friends!

i miss lab!! i even miss autoclaving stuff, taking ice from the ice machine, walking labs to labs to find animals etc. THE SIMPLEST THINGS CAN BE THE MOST sweet things(:

Peeps! we shall meet after our attachment, fyp fer dinner kay! (:
KEEPINCONTACTIFNOT!XP

2009-05-16T01:07:00.024+08:00

"ANIMALS" Rendezvous by the bay! (:

^amanda shaky hand~

^yours truly-roseY-Amandy

^Ice-creamy time to coooooool us down...ahhhhhhhhhh.

^what a Hot-Hot day!

^ok this is so random amanda!!lols.

^Joke of the day! look rather..____ gay.

^Sweaty and sticky animals!

Thats all! let the pictures do the talking!! more outing plsz! :D

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to me; LOVE = BLISS

BLISS = SIMPLE-simplicity

P.S. i love you

^the most touching story ever. Never fail to tears me every single time i watch.

how a man bring her luv back from hell, with conscientious planning. ^^

a perfect love story, too good to be true. A story that will warmth your (heart+soul), {cause they work together, never will they be separated} As what woman said; "we all say L-O-V-E". But people do have different views on it. They are never Right nor Wrong, because there is no standard or purr-fect answer to this question of mine. We can never work out the steps/protocol because there isn't any formulas for us to follow and abide, simply to say..there is no rules to this game. Once you are out! You are. Outta of the game. Cruel yet true. This is the world that we're living. Wake up if you're still unaware of it. No matter how hard we seem to fought fer it, what exactly happened in the end? clue-less. love is not a miracle, but just a co-incidence.

Yeah, it is like a board game. The chances of you getting a double six(a special bonus) is like?? No ones know.God knows. The number of steps that we took doesn't determine how close we are towards our "perfect ending". A sudden piece of rock may fall from nowhere and be a obstacle. (like what i love to say; "you will never know").

"like a kite, the harder you pull it towards you, the more the string will snap.

and when you let away the string, the kite will fly, to some other places and lost it way back."

Life is never too long fer anything, But too short for Everything (:

indeed.

"one can never love someone so much because they will not last".[beautifully-hidden]

i do not know when i will fall back into love, but right now,right here with all the friends and my family. i can say, i'm Bliss (: fulllllllllllllllllllstopppppppppp! happy ending(snaps!)

juls; stop looking at the stars. having a long break.

AND..my mind is 80% ready to fly!

fly away from this misery land to pursue for my own happiness. so hard to find a good man.

gonna miss my russell :(

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you

`wipe off your tears and pursue your dream.

2009-05-12T18:23:00.007+08:00

broke like crap!

1 tooth=120 bucks?!
3 teeth= 360 bucks!

$%&*^&^%^%#$@&^

freaking [EX]pensive!
may need a surgery??

Rah'''
PAINful` :(

busy like crap,
tired like crap,
crazy like Crab!

BRACES IS THE NEW SEX~!
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And And Juls is Super duper happy now!!
because..

she just chat with VEDRO!
OMGOSH!!
I MISS VEDRO SO MUCH!

he's the best senior cum friend ever! (and the richest one..lols)

What's MORE!! he will be flying back to Singapore from UK next month!
i can finally meet him again!!

die die also must see him!!
and i can give him the keychain that i bought fer him..like 4yrs ago?? hehes :D
it still look new though i have kept it in my drawer for donkey years!

YEAH! (:(:(:

2009-05-06T14:25:00.003+08:00

ok..here i am typing..in school lab, waiting for incubation time to end! sooo busy!

aint no slacking. alright!

this is wad i found from my friend's blog...its true, its true.

To love someone is to respect .. to give , to remember , to forgive , to hand on ,to communicate , to be responsible for every word and action made ,to trust and let go .

2009-05-05T23:31:00.006+08:00

Ok i shall blog my dear. For you, Only you~
ok im high now! when..yes..WHEN i have the time, we shall dig out our old Photographs since primary-school and post it! (to scare peeps..lol). And to retrieve our past memories/collections..OUR reminiscence!

Basically is our cough*..our lovely ones! [BELOV-ED] (:

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esp..hehe..you know..

for Now..I FORGOT TO GIVE MY HUSBANDS NEW HOUSE!! HOW!LOL~
(basically i forgot to restreak my plate..=_=! i left in the incubator for 2 freaking days and i shall see MORE HUSBANDS!nono!! more sons and daughters! More descendents! they will blame me fer not giving them freedom!lols.)

^not everyone could understand, i know i know.

Cerals Family! i still love KoKo Crunch the most!~
KOKO CRUNCH dip in FRESH WHITE MILK..which turns the white milk into chocolate Milk= yummy!

ok.in conclusion.I AM ENJOYING MY BEAUTIFUL, LOVELY, EXCITING, SEXY,AMUSING LYFE! AWESOME-NESS! :D

2009-05-02T22:21:00.003+08:00

the eight blue rubbers that torments me!

have you ever had the experience of eating;

with the fear that the rubbers between your teeth will drop off!
that you might swallowed it unknowingly!
or you might even chew together with your food!

seriously..damn uncomfortable! teeth hurts Big! numbness..

all this for the good of a beautiful smile!! Endure alil, perserve till the end.
for all things require sacrifices.ITS WORTH IT!

No good foods for me, its frigging painful`

it comes with a heavy price,
aint no daddy girl!

thats why my wallet has a big hole now.

aint no kids nimore!
rely on yourself thats it.

INDEPENDENT IS THE WORD.

2009-04-29T23:45:00.005+08:00

Ultimate= Nerds!

The School of Chemical and NO Life Science!

Hahas!~(For the intelligent..)

camwhoring in lab?? (i m done with my transformation!!hope my husbands grow well!)

I LOVE YOU WOMAN! Lols.( i know you will be touched when you see this)

You know what i mean! You swear to get me 19 kISSes on my 19th! (pls hor..good ones okay..hehe) Get WILD man on my FAVOURITE year Birthday! 19 rawks. No doubts!

Can't wait fer Jully July!!!!!!!!

Turn clarke quay upside down~

Damn`

wanna be a Bitch,but apparently im not qualified for it..Lols

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Maya upon seeing my msn' pm..

"How can you be a bitch?! You are soo nice la! If you are a bitch then what about the rest?"

im not nice la!!Lol..Shitter`

darn~Lol. But i can be wild! Whoohoo~

nineteen b'day will be the best and the wildest one ever.

Last teen year; Bitch. opps (:

Fever Nights on!

2009-04-26T01:12:00.024+08:00

Fever Night ON!!

WHAT a exciting, fun, amazing, cool, WILD NIGHT I HAD..should say we had. Right WOMAN!
Alright the best gotta save fer the very last. So here i am, smiling grin to grin~
Woke up early fer my appointment at Mount E and re-shedule the Next appointment! Yippee! Gotta have a surgery soon(:

Had a salsa meal~ (gotta dance salsa!jk!)
Intend to "window shop".Yes. That's the word! Apparently there's SALE EVERYWHERE! And womEn tends to be attracted to these stuffie. "Like the bees attracted to the flowers".I am a real woman no doubt; so i follow the crowd. Whoosh~ SALES fer the branded stuff! HARD to find..real hard. Theres' Guess, lactose, and many LOADS MORE~ And i found something that i love at 1st sight!! Though its ex.

My wish=to get a LV bag! lol ok random.
And my freaking pair of legs are breaking from the the walks since morning..

The main agenda of the day was to go to this bar and get wild. But not THAT wild that i expected..LOL. Photos time! Put on your seat belts peeps!

The fun and long nights usually will be held @ CLARKE QUAY! Here it is. The Marrakesh; caught this bar weeks ago and and the crave to try it cause of its beautiful swing! (IN THE BAR!!) And thankfully it's 18 and above! whee whee!

Yeap! The swings~

And the place where we chilled out~ with curtains,...absolutely NICE AMBIENCE'S!

And here is the menu, for those under 18. Interesting cocktails' name!
And i tried the house special, with Banana?? Taste pretty tropical, not potent at all.

Here it goes~Greeny with pineapple resting on the glass..Yum Yum!

And woman had the cough cough.."I Love You. You Love Me" cocktail. Lol!

Taste great (:

AND the SHOOTERS! i wana drink! I intend to drink it! The Flaming Lamborghini! Damn! Can't drink because..shall fill you guys later~

And here is our dinner; the special platter which cost 30 bucks!? But its not bad, exotic food.

We had our fun time eating and chatting while there's 2(two) Caucasians aka the "ang mo" came sitting opposite us on the swing. Both short hairs, only one drank beer..Then after a few minutes, we realised that they were constantly looking at us..yeah woman! And she felt uneasy so she freaking change the seats so that she can face me =__='' Lol..now i am the one suffering..lols. And i was jokingly telling woman that we can flirt with them since they were interested in us uh. Then they left the swing and we thought they are going to the cashier to pay. I still REMEMBERED you saying they will Never come over..LOL.And viola~ They indeed came! Whoo~i was quite shocked. Yeah. Laughing non-stop. And the guy that wore white shirt which i am not that interested went over to woman side, then the one in blue which both of us think is hotter went over to my side! Lol. We were there chatting for hours i guess. The one sitting next to me is Taylor bo-?? ?? ?? .A long name with hyphen..lol. And woman's "man" called josh ?? mee. Can't really remember. Taylor is from America; Maryland..Chicago. He had 1 elder brother and 1 younger brother. His grandparents had a CORN FARM!! lOL! And it is huge! okok..basically they are here for 3 days vacation in Singapore. They worked in the navy and he's the fire fighter whereas josh do something with the aviation. Woman wanna walked to the esplanade and eventually we brought them along! Woah! That's how my shot GONE.lol. The fun part was we were like having "double dates". Whoo! He was soooo cough cough into you. yeap. Lol. I saw "arms" in the bar. And while we were walking, do remember that sometimes Taylor and me were walking slower and i saw it! Then we walked to the beautiful bridge near Fullerton hotel and i was like Taylor's tour guide..lol.Teaching him abt Sing History and buildings. Aww,..josh was sweet to suggest carrying you across the bridge. Haha. And Taylor was saying we were lovely my dear! And i got his email. lol. Remind me to ask for the grp photos. And we went to the merlion...LOVELY PICTURES..LOL.

Our lovely MERLION.

Our lovely cough cough~

That's josh and woman! SEE! his hand..cough cough~ And whats more EXCITING IS HE ACTUALLY do that to you after the shot??!Lol. Damn loud la woman. I was shocked! Very! i freeze there fer approx 5 s. Are you sure he's shy? Luckily Taylor was not that cough~overly friendly.

Heres' my Taylor! Lol. Apparently he should be with you woman cos hes taller!
Josh= beautiful green eyes.
Taylor=beautiful eye lashes.

He's Sweet. to wanna carry me cos my pair of feet are killing me!hehe.

Oh ya! Hope they wont get punish cause of us!! (feel so bad!lol.)
And they are flying back to Virginia on the 28th..aww..so fast. I simply had a great time man! The night shouldn't end!

Anyway thats my 1st trip to a bar and such a exciting "1 night walk". ^^

Woman! NEXT date= Shisha/Hookah!

AND ONCE AGAIN! im more SEXCITED!

p.s the freaking cocktail thirst me fer the whole night! (Things that Must bring if going to a bar= 500ml of H2O).

2009-04-22T19:48:00.006+08:00

Peeps below 18 advise not to read; they are considered as kids/children.

And woman..!

Here are some of my "duck" criteria..

1) Must be fresh; NOT deflower. Even you can't taste it beforehand! its MINE!..hahas
(deflowering is said to "pop their cherry")
who likes cherry?lol~

2) Must not be too OLD..yes i emphasize it.lol~
10 yrs shall be the max!

3) Must not be too hairy. itch man!

4) Preferably local. Never from countries like you know..
too WILD to be tame.

5) Must be affordable~

And im SEXcited!!

2009-04-18T00:25:00.008+08:00

Divine from Heaven.

No such words as lunching in Julia's dictionary !
don't ask why. and why. FULL-STOP.
Gonna camp overnight at my house's downstair.!
Days of paper origami..
Pretty, absolutely, totally worn out! (yawn~)

when my dad ask what's my grandma last words to me..
with tears in his eyes.

my heart sank
.....
this is the 1st time.
"to study hard". he replied.
and as a filial grandaughter i shall fulfil it.

And thanks for coming my dears~
and the card (:
Such a coincidence, my "auntie" is darice's friend..Oo
Fated.

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And seriously.
EtBr gonna bring me cancer disease.
I touch. many a times.
FOR AGAROSE GEL!

Plus the sonicator which i forgot to turn it off while its on..
and i happily clean the tips...
Gonna lose my hearings.
With the freaking high frequency.
(Sonicator= a machine used to disrupt cell walls with its extemely high frequency!)

Lab safety!!
Beware~

2009-04-15T00:06:00.006+08:00

"Obedience is the Product of serious faithfulness." (:

Thou shall not fall into worldly temptation.
Temptations are everywhere. A life will not be temptation-less because our enemy will be there to test us, test on our level of faith, and to weaken our love for God..

Resist and fight them on! For we have our

1)Helmet of Salvation
2)Breastplate of Righteousness
3)Girdle of Truth
4)Shoes the Gospel of Peace
5)Shield of Faith
6)Sword on the Word of God

"Keep thy heart with all diligence; for out of it are the issues of life". (KJV)

Because our hearts guide and direct all that we do. Every word that comes out of our mouth starts in the heart. All of our actions and choices are driven by the desires of the heart.
Though we spent large sums of money on earthy possesion,
but what lies.. is from the h-e-a-r-t.

The enemy wants to embitter and corrupt US. Guard your heart against contamination by lust and loneliness, bigotry and arrogance, and everything in between!

Believe with your heart and FAITH graduate through life's experiences.

Life will dealt you some tough cards, don’t give up. Overcome the wince of pain!! You may be down, but bless God, continue to love & praise God! you are not out(out of the game)! Strengthen the things that remain and go on.There will be no towel-throwing in this fight.
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Decided to do something out of the norm! which is~

1) Visiting S-------- Club
2) Making B-----
3) Staying in a H---- with you! ^^
4) Trying S-----
5) Go for a D---- session
6) Travel to _________?? with YOU! (my secret affair!)
7) Borrow your M--
8) To lose W-----
9) Kiss a G---
1O) To have more F-- with _______.

p.s im 99% normal, 1% Wild~

thats all folks~
(7 mins in heaven??)

No point. yes.

2009-04-10T12:10:00.002+08:00

They said i don't have to be silly,
because VALUES & MORALS they don't count today.

They said i don't have to be gullible,
because TRUTH & RIGHTEOUSNESS don't exist at all.

They said i don't have to be naive,
because FAITH & COMMITMENT doesn't comes by.

BUT..

I still chooses to believe.
to believe in the one who came to died for our sins,
the one who endures all the pain and insults,
the one and ONLY one who came to RELIEF!

Life can be really easy;
Just live and enjoy;
and party it away.
But only the foolish chooses to believe,
And then forget the one;
who came to save us.

Life is TOO short for us to play about with.
A moment of folly can destroy our life.
A moment of wisdom can glorify God.

But still,..

i am not a follower of the norm
i choose not to compromise my belief
though it's never easy
Stay strong in the house of God,
for faithfulness and commitment..
bring forth prosperity and unexpected miracles works!

i'd rather be silly, gullible and naive. Rather be foolish..
for a fool gains nothing,
but himself only.

Ask yourself this; What kinda life you wanna live?

A life full of FUN ONLY?? thats wasting and throwing life away.

Might as well give to those who wants to treasure life badly but they can't!

Agreee?

We can do so much things in our life, by impacting the people around us, by making a great differences in their life, by loving them and caring for them..so much more!

AND The question is. to be,
Or not to be??

To be the salt of the earth?
To walk through the long and narrow way?
To endure pain and shamefulness?
To stay strong in his presence?
To persevere till the end?
To act accordingly to his words?
To be a good disciple?
To uphold his image??!

My heart is set,
set upon the House of God.
To serve God for my eternal life.
Placing God 1st in my life, then my studies (:

2009-03-28T00:11:00.000+08:00

ten tips for 2009!

1) Do not get into trouble.

2) Aim for greater heights.

3) Stay focused on your job.

4) Exercise to maintain good health

5) Practice Team work

6) Rely on your trusted partner/friends to watch your back.

7) Be safe on rainy days.

8) Rest, relax & find time to read my blog!

9) Always smile when your boss is around.

10) Remember nothing is impossible.

2009-03-26T21:18:00.000+08:00

Fear of the Lord is the beginning of Wisdom.

God can be trusted, but God's people?
Trust is not just a word, it takes plenty of time and effort.

My philosophy of Life

2009-03-23T20:41:00.001+08:00

Life is short yet long.

Why do i say it's short..?
Ans: You will never know when you will die

1) In this broken down world where psycho are everywhere..you may get raped, shot, stabbed etc.
2) Reckless drivers everywhere, you may get knock down while crossing the roads.
3) Fish bones or fish ball may get stuck between your throat, hinder proper respiration.
4) Hidden diseases or unknown diseases in your body which may trigger upon infection.
5) Some flower pots may fall on your head while you walk pass the HDB flats.
6) Some toxic insects/animals may sting/bite you OR in contact with corrosive reagents!! (which has a higher tendency happening to me.) I may die soon!

Life is long..?

Ans: So much things to achieve in Life! Look upon to your Bright future! Visualise and Believe on it! I CAN DO IT!
1) Aim for the best education that you can ever imagine of. Because Knowledge is Power!
2) Get a good, not enough..a best job and earn More money to attain a higher status! People are materialistic.
3) Fulfilling my dreams!!

Woman's heart is weaker than her flesh

2009-03-17T23:13:00.002+08:00

Alright, it has been such a long time since i last blog. Lost the touch. awww.

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY tO yOU!! Time flies woman..You are 19 now. Soon i will be too. Then we will reach 2_...hahas..ok..that's scary. Ok..hope to see you in your wedding gown..soon.

Anyway arent you excited that i have the 1st post on your B'day (= Well, im pretty glad fer you now because i know you can depend on him. A nice, great guy(: You will always have my support even though all opposes it! I LOVE YOU(:

I love doing expt in school everyday! Esp when there's someone to guide me. Thank God!
Flyer is worth the ride and I found a bar that sing Christian songs live somewhere around the flyers' shops..! Yeah So cool but must be over the legal age to step in.
Thank God there's free shuttle bus and I love the free ride because i got to enjoy the breeze that slowly brushes away my problems. Ahh..

Sweet embrace

“You never really leave a place or person you love, part of them you take with you ,leaving a part of yourself behind.”

GOD

you're so vain

Happy Birthday

Truly, Madly, Deeply, it's not over.. . .

the way.

99 balloons that blessed me.

crossroad.

the star loses it's shine tonight

real happiness.<3

"A smile is a curve that sets everything straight"

drugs for the soul.

How i wish. . .

when the birds meet the bees. (or vice versa)

19th

GSK!

Fever Nights on!

No point. yes.

My philosophy of Life

Woman's heart is weaker than her flesh